Not this time

I woke up this morning to discover that my period had just started, and while on one hand it meant we were not pregnant, it was also a nice reminder that my ovaries did work at least a little, and that is enough to make me happy today!

I will continue doing my research about the fer.ti.li.ty clinics and the egg do.na.tion programs but I believe we still want to wait at least 4 more months to see what my ovaries are up to. It is weird because there is really nothing I want more than being pregnant again, but then I don´t want to rush things. In the mean while we can also take advantage of this extra time to save a little more to cover the stupidly expensive costs of I..V..F.. with egg do.na.tion.

....because yes, it will be paid out of our very own pockets.

I remind myself every day to keep things in perspective, because my life is great enough already to ruin it with sadness!

CD61 - AKA 1 DPO!

Yeap, that is right.... today I am 1 day past ovulation!

...Yesterday at the ultrasound my lining measured 9.5mm (2.5mm increase from the day before) and my right ovary showed a nice collapsed "late bloomer" follie which meant I had already ovulated a few hours ago. The previous day it measured 16mm, I hope it had a chance to get a little bigger and be mature.

I asked my doctor at the beginning of the appointment if he thought we should do an I..U..I.. considering the impending uncertainty about my future cycles and he agreed that it couldn´t hurt and might help, but after the ultrasound confirmed that I have already ovulated, the I..U..I.. was out of the question, it was too late. So, this try is all on our own!

While of course we are cautiously optimistic, we know there are no guarantees. We will sure hope for the best but be prepared for the worst....

....I guess the simple thought of knowing there is a chance will get us through this waiting stage, because where there is life (and a late bloomer egg!), there is hope!

CD 60 - There is something happening!

After my monitoring appointment yesterday it seems that something is going on.

My right ovary thought CD 60 was not too late and decided to work a little.

I have ONE growing follie measuring 16mm and my lining was at 7mm.

I go in today for another ultrasound to keep track of this nice late bloomer of mine.

It only takes one, right???....

....Can I hope it is a good one???