New year, …new beginnings!

I have been gone for a long time. I was busy and for some reason I didn’t feel like posting, but I read all of your posts.

I have a lot of things to share. I believe this is going to be a long post. So please make yourself comfortable and here we go…

Our daughter just turned 9 months old. I really have no words to describe how much we are enjoying this parenting adventure. I never imagined it was going to be so much fun!
She is doing great, eating lots of solids and trying very hard to crawl. She has been on formula for some time now and the transition from beast milk to formula was really easy, she didn’t care at all.

The T is doing great!... He committed to loose weight 6 months ago and he is doing so well. On the other hand I am trying not to loose to much weight, actually trying to gain some.

I had a full check up last December and thankfully everything came back great. My thyroid is still a little under active, so I am taking my medication everyday and I felt pretty good until last week. I started having night sweats, and as I am tracking my cycles, I noticed no fertile cervical fluid at all and it just didn’t seem right. After I stopped lactating I was extremely happy to have my cycles back. I know this may seem odd to a lot of people, but I really was excited because I have had a very clear pattern of Pre.mat.ure O.va.rian Fai.lure before and back then I stopped cycling like that. My hormone levels were pretty much the ones a woman is supposed to have at me.no.pause. My ovaries were lazy enough to go on strike and it is really unpredictable if they were going to work again someday, or not. It seemed that my o.va.rian re.ser.ve was getting to its end and we had no kids…. And we wanted kids…. So this was not good….. at all!

….I went from one doctor to the next, and then to an endocrinologist and somehow, magically, after cutting back on exercise and incorporating extra supplements to my diet I started cycling again…and the cycles and my hormone levels totally reverted. They were as good as the ones of a healthy teenager. We and the doctors were happy, and even though it took several months, we took advantage of that great trend and got pregnant on our own. We all took a deep breath and the pregnancy was really uneventful until well, the very end when I had partial placental abruption and our daughter was born prematurely, in very difficult conditions. God decided she needed to stay a bit longer here on earth and she is still on “loan” with us, thankfully!

….Now, after 3 normal cycles post lactation, the night sweats and the lack of fer.tile cer.vi.cal flu.id made me suspect I had stopped cycling again and well, it was confirmed last Monday. My hormomes are once again in meno.pau.sal levels. I went to see my endocrinologist yesterday and she concurred, but considering I´ve just had 3 normal periods she believes I am not fu.lly me.no.pau.sal, but pe.ri. me.no.pau.sal. instead. We don´t know if this will be the end of my fer.ti.le stage of life, and the T and I really want to give a sibling to our daughter.

So, it seems we will be on one of those roller coaster rides in the months ahead. Yesterday, at my appointment with the endocrinologist, we called my OB, and they both concurred that, if we really want a biological sibling to our daughter, we can´t wait any longer. They suggest to go on a 3 month period of B..C..P.. and then an stimulation cycle with injections and most likely in.se.mi.na.tion.

The T didn´t have a chance to go with me to the appointment yesterday. We talked about all this at night and well, it is all happening too fast. It seems that we agreed to go ahead with this plan but we still have questions to discuss with our OB, hopefully the second week of next month. For now, I have started the B..C..P..

Oh my….. I can´t believe we are just about to embark on this journey, I hope and pray to have the strength to wake each day with a smile on my face, grateful for what I already have and finding peace with whatever the final outcome is!

Let's all welcome Baby Stellan!!!

I have been following Mck Mama's blog for a while now and I am trully amazed by her strong faith, her incredible great sense of humor, her positive thinking and outstanding attitude through everyday life.

She is just an amazing woman who is 9 months pregnant. She and her jusband learned a few months ago that her baby had a congenital heart condition and will surely die. That was the doctors oppinion but as we know, in this life the last word belongs to no the doctors but to our Father. There are no impossibles and He is the one who has and will have the last word.

Baby Stellan's birthday is tomorrow and I will appreciate if you could have him and his family in your thoughts and prayers. So please, if you are a believer say a prayer, if you don't just do a chicken dance, a positive thought or just smile thinking about them.

Every little effort will surely help tons!

If you are a believer and you think you don't know how to pray, don't worry and be sure that God can hear even the most silent prayer attempt!

Is it time for an update???...

….I guess it is!!!

We have been doing fine, our little girl is 5 months old and she is doing fine. Her 5 month-old doctor appointment went well. She is healthy, happy (at least it seems!), weighing 6.40 kg, measuring 62 cms.

I had heard that there is a set back on night feedings at 5 months and I believe she had it the last couple of weeks. She is not sleeping through the night yet. She had been doing just one midnight feeding between 3-4AM for a while but then she started waking up every 3 hours like a newborn!...At the beginning I thought of the set back I have heard and after a few days of the same thing I decided to change her day schedule to add one more feeding session during the day and so far it has been working. Still not sleeping through the night, but is back to her one midnight feeding... Oh well, let's see how it goes this coming week.

Then, the last week, I noticed I was having tons of what seems to be “f.e.r.t.i.l.e.” cer.vi.cal fluid for a few days and then more this week, so now I am thinking that maybe, just maybe, my ovaries are starting to wake up again -therefore I had a drop in my milk supply- and that is why my poor baby was hungrier during the night!....

I need to admit it, I am beyond excited to see if my body is really gearing up to start cycling again…. I know I sound crazy, but it really makes me happy, because I was preparing myself to the fact that I may never cycle again. I am grateful for what I have, and I keep praying to be able to see all the great things in my life and not let the sadness take over me if my cycles just never come back. Nothing is for sure now, I will need to wait and see what happens, but at least “something” is happening!