Monday, March 31, 2008

The things that get through my mind these days...

I know I have been MIA lately, if you haven’t read the 2 posts from last Friday, go ahead and read them, those will give you a little recap.

Things haven been busy but we are all fine. I can’t really complain. These last few weeks have been sad. I am so touched by Kathy’s news and the news of the daughter of my OB/GYN. It really keeps me wondering about how “unfair” things are sometimes….

… And while I feel so happy that everything seems to be going OK with our little girl, and us, there are moments where I have mixed feelings about it and feel bad. I feel bad because I know about the struggles some of you have been experiencing and a lot of questions start to wonder around me, ….

Who I am to deserve this???…


….And then I really don’t feel like posting because I don’t want to hurt any of you going through difficult times.

I am a truly believer that when one door closes another one opens, I’ve been through difficult times also and that is what keeps me going when everything seems to be upside down.

I am sure that if God created shadows, it was because He wanted us to appreciate the beauty of light…. His desires most of the times can’t be understood, they just need to be accepted.

3 comments:

Fertilized said...

excellently put!

It is so hard for me to read Kathy's post - knowing that we are on the same timeline and then post about my own situation. But as i am sad for her, I want to remember this for me ..it's a hard balancing act to handle

singletracey said...

Hey you! Just caught up on ya! So glad you posted. I like the shadows thing.. perfectly put :-) With that.. I am ready to hop over to your side of the tracks ;-)!

hugs~
Tracey~

Kathy said...

Thank you for sharing... I agree with what Farah posted to you and don't want what I am going through to take away from your joy or your feeling like you can share openly about it. I just commented on Farah's blog and want to share what I wrote w/ you, as I fell like it applies to you too.

This is your time and you are more than allowed to enjoy it, blog about it, relish in it, etc. I know it may be difficult for you at times, with everything you have gone through to get to this point though. Anyway, I am really so very happy for you, and even though my pregnancy is likely not going to end with a healthy baby or an alive one for that matter, I hope you know how much that doesn't take away from me wanting the best for you and your happiness, which includes the wonderful blessing that is/will continue to be your daughter/your baby girl.

On the flipside, thank you for continuing to read/follow/comment on my blog, as I imagine it can be pretty depressing at times when you are trying to enjoy a more "normal" pregnancy. (((HUGS)))

Sorry so long. I just want you to know how much I care about you and want you to be able to enjoy the experience your are going through with out worrying so much about other's sadness, though it is very thoughtful of you.

Take care and God bless,
Kathy